those desperate days.

when I suddenly feel the urge of having something that I really want. I really need. I really like. when I imagine myself earning something from the hard work that I did. when I already want to gain experience. when getting out of home is the only thing in my mind. when doing something else would make me happy. when getting busy will make me forget of other things.

those desperate days. when I already want to start living your life. when I want to feel independent. when I want to prove yourself of what I can do. when I already help my loved ones, give them what they want. give myself what I want. when I get excited of looking to things that I like. 

those desperate days. when I don't know what to do. when I don't know what to know. when I don't know what to try. what to discover. what to give. what to hone. what to think. when I think of how to live. 

those desperate days. that always bugs me every single second of my life. 

those desperate days. this day has been one of those. 

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)