awkward.

i don't know.

i sometimes feel awkward when something really goes wrong, when i feel there is something wrong. it's really weird. i am just paranoid at so many things, things that i can think of.

i maybe overthinking things, or overseeing the scenes of the phenomena. (wow. it sounds geeky/nerdy/whatcamacallit). hahaha.

i think it's already been part of my psyche. to feel awkward, to be emo, get sad, be frustrated, get worried or whatever. and i must control it. perhaps, i should not be like this. i must not do this, because it doesn't bring anything to me. it'll just make me cry, it'll not make me happy, in that case.

haay. ewan ko ba. i should think happy thoughts. if it is really my bad, then it is my bad. if it's not, then it's not. i should now know how to focus on things i should not think about.

but right now, i really feel like crying right now. i guess i should.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)