xiao ren and da ren.

"small man" in mandarin

i learned this on class, then it was discussed on our philosophy class, a lesson about Confucius' moral philosophy.

and this was a concept, which also means "inferior man"

nung nalaman ko yun, naisip ko kaagad na ang pagiging inferior.

inferiority, pagiging mas mababa, nalalamangan ng iba, takot sa nakakataas sa kanila. i think, katulad ko, i am an inferior. kasi takot ako sa law, kaya hindi ko ginagawa ang mga bagay na dapat hindi gawin.

takot ako sa mga magulang ko, kasi kahit papaano sila pa rin naman ang nag-aalaga sakin. natatakot akong magpaalam sa mga kung ano-ano kasi baka hindi ako payagan o hindi ako bigyan.

being inferior, parang wala kang nagagawa, kasi hindi mo nagagawa yung gusto mo. ang sinusunod mo lang ay ang authority.

which should not be.

ang da ren, which literally means "big man" ay "superior man" naman sa moral philosophy ni Confucius.

well, ito ang kabaligtaran ng inferiority; superiority.

ito yung pagkakaroon ng alam sa mga bagay-bagay, alam ang ginagawa, at hindi na kailangan ng authority, since alam naman niya yung ginagawa niya.

well, yeah. he acts within himself, as in choice niyang gawin yun.

and when i was asked by our professor, "why don't you want to kill?" ang sagot ko ay "because it is bad.."

sa simpleng sagot na iyon, i was said to be a superior man.

pero, takot rin ako sa law, pero bakit naman kasi ako magnanakaw? eh, okay naman buhay ko. haha.

lol. this has been a long post. will try post more.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

BUSY AUGUST,

prelims month. WOOH.

kinda busy. so much things to do.

but, i am surviving.

ganito pala ang feeling ng 4th year. O.o

buti nalang, tapos na. or patapos na. 2 exams to go. WAAH.

tapos, finals na. hoshet.

oh well. will post some posts.

weee.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

laughing alone.

sorry, this is just now.

i missed reading Chico Garcia's posts on his blog. eeehhh, i love his morning rush top ten posts. i really get a lot of laugh when reading them.

and sometimes, i just read them alone, and sometimes, i read them at the internet section of the school library..and i laugh alone.

gash, maybe people here may be thinking i am crazy. LOL.

anyhoo, will read some more posts. it's a stress reliever. weee.

till here, for now.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

emo.

ang sarap magpaka-emo ngayong araw na ito.

kasi, wala naman akong masyadong gagawin. pangalawa, pwede kong isipin ang mga problema ko, pangatlo, umuulan, it suits to the emo mood, and ang pang-apat siguro eh para may maisip kalang. LOL.

emo. emotional. emo-emohan, or kung ano pa man ang tawag dun. ibig sabihin nun eh paglalabas ng mga saloobin mong tinatago. galit, lungkot, saya, inggit, or kung ano pa mang emosyon yan. ehhh, hindi lang naman focused sa isang emosyong ang emo, sa tingin ko. pero, naging habit kasi natin na pag nakakita na tayo ng taong malungkot, yun, emo na. pero, dahil emo means emotional, i think isipin rin natin na ang pagiging emo eh kasama dun ang paglalabas ng kung ano-ano mang emosyon. diba? hindi lang malungkot. hindi lang naman kalungkutan ang emosyon diba? unless yun lang alam mong gawin. edi ayun. haha.

gash. may sense ba ito? eto ang nagagawa ng tinatamad mag-aral.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

OH HELLO AUGUST.

hello august! :D

grabe, sobrang bilis ng oras, august na pala! parang kailan lang, summer pa. HAHAHA.

anyhoo, birthday ngayon ng panganay kong kapatid. happy birthday sa kanya! nagtatrabaho na siya ngayon, weee. sana manlibre siya. LOL.

i have been busy with a lot of school things today. i've been doing papers, been doing AVP's and photoshoots (member kasi ako ng documentation committee ng society ng course namin, eh ayun), been doing notes, reading assignments, took long quizzes, class officer duties and the like. yeah yeah, very typical of a 4th year college, perhaps.

i have also been busy with choir officer duties in our church. i really don't have the management and the organization skills to handle things that i should handl. nevertheless, kinakaya ko pa naman ata. i hope so.

and lastly, since i am already in 4th year college, we are now realizing that we are already going to graduate. i'm happy that i am a part of UST's Quadricentennial batch. very fulfilling, and very pressuring too. well i hope i would be able to face that pressure, and be up to the challenges of the 4th year college life. wooh!

so yeah, maliban sa mga personal kong problema, nakakaya ko pa naman. HAHA. nag-iinarte lang ako. kaya, tama na ang pag-iinarte. :))

and so, 7 months to go before graduation. WAH.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

awkward.

i don't know.

i sometimes feel awkward when something really goes wrong, when i feel there is something wrong. it's really weird. i am just paranoid at so many things, things that i can think of.

i maybe overthinking things, or overseeing the scenes of the phenomena. (wow. it sounds geeky/nerdy/whatcamacallit). hahaha.

i think it's already been part of my psyche. to feel awkward, to be emo, get sad, be frustrated, get worried or whatever. and i must control it. perhaps, i should not be like this. i must not do this, because it doesn't bring anything to me. it'll just make me cry, it'll not make me happy, in that case.

haay. ewan ko ba. i should think happy thoughts. if it is really my bad, then it is my bad. if it's not, then it's not. i should now know how to focus on things i should not think about.

but right now, i really feel like crying right now. i guess i should.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)