the camera, the globe, and the wing

these past few days, i have been thinking of what do i really want to achieve in life. i have been working for 3 years and tried different jobs to gain experience. but after all that i did, i still felt like i am not progressing as much as i want to. at that moment, i thought i think i should rethink the career that i chose. i have been writing and editing for a living. yes, i can say that i have already improved a lot, or a little, but i am still not sure if this is the thing i want to do for the rest of my life.

as i was thinking my career path, i also questioned the things i want to achieve. i thought of what my dreams are. currently, my future is really really blurred.

last December 2013, i bought these three earplugs at Papemelroti. i bought them not because i want them for my phone, but to remind me of what my peg in life is. there were really cute earplugs on their catalog. but these three struck something in me and decided to get them.

the camera. the reason why i got this one is because i have been imagining myself of taking pictures as my work. when i had no work, i thought of selling pictures i took with my digital camera. the bokeh and light graffiti photos, and the ones i think look like a piece of art. i just don't know how i would sell them and if people would really buy them. when i got into in Instagram, i also thought of selling the photos i took using the app, but i hesitated again. i just love taking photos. and if i would have another job after writing, i really want to be a photographer.

the globe. for this one, i think i was influenced by my parents to travel. i want to travel and immerse myself with other cultures. i want to see things that i don't see everyday. my parents have invested to travel wonderful places inside and outside the country. i want to do that, too, in the future.

the wing. i picked this one because.... i want to spread my own wings and be free. i have been hiding what i truly am to people and i should show them what i really am. i want to quit hiding and just fly. i still cant do that today because i feel like i am not yet brave enough to do that.

these three earplugs are always in my bag. every time i see them, i am reminded of the things i want in life. i haven't fulfilled any of the goals i set for myself. but i wish to reach them in the near future. and i hope it comes soon.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)