i feel...

..so alone.

and desperate.

Well..

what has actually happened?


well. got too much work to do. that happened.

got too much church work to do. that happened.

my room turned in to a huge ball of dirt and mess. that literally happened.

got big eye bags, that normally happens.

feeling tired and burned out. currently happening.

what has not yet happened? getting rest.

oh yeah, i am back to my blog. that just happened. now.

:)

Hi!

Good day!

We have already received your request for a discount. We would like to inform you that We won't be able to give your request. It is because we have already given you lower rates compared to our other clients. Moreover, we got delayed in finishing the project because you kept on sending additional photos of your products as time goes by.

We hope for your eklavu chuvachenes chorvaness chararat. Salamat pows.

Nagmamahal,

Ate Charo

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

Internet Connection Problem

now that i am working for a company that relies on the Internet, having a problem with the Internet connection will really put our work into delay. 

especially for my job. i always need to be online the moment i get into the office. my webmail must be online always. i always upload posts on FB fanpages and twitter. i also upload online ads, so i also need to be online on google adwords. what's even worse is i don't just handle one account. i handle so many accounts and i am only handling all of them alone. when i got hired, my boss gave me 8 accounts immediately, and it might turn to 11 before this month ends. 

i don't know. i should be crying right now with all the stress. i should be complaining about everything right now. well, i do get stressed, and i do complain sometimes. but, what's surprising is i am able to cope up with them. i guess, there'll be more to come in the future. i hope i'd be more prepared when that time comes, though.

but right now, what makes me frustrated is the Internet connection. since the first day of this month, we haven't had a fast connection. i hope before this month ends, we'll already have a good and fast Internet connection. and i also miss my office computer. 

oh well. i hope you're having a great day today.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

i actually don't know...

...what to say. i haven't been blogging for a while now. but i have been planning of things to write. having said that, i never posted one. it's because... i lost the list of the ideas i would like to write about. and since i lost the list, i never had a chance to rethink those ideas again.

moreover, i have been so nailed at work that i always think of it and get nervous about all the things i do related to work. as a matter of fact, i just remembered at this very moment that i have a blog here at the office!

now, i am thinking if i should have a hiatus. if i'll have one, it'll be sure that i won't follow it because i will always visit my blog. if i promise to update more often, definitely i won't be able to follow it, too, since i am so pre-occupied with all kinds of work (office and church and whatnot.)

but i have decided. to squeeze in a little blogging every once in a while just to release the stress, to lubricate my mind with creative juices, and to make my imagination run wild even when it doesn't really run wild.. it just walks. slowly. and. yes. sorry for that lame joke.

anyway. i guess i'll try to rethink those ideas i wrote before. and i'll try to write some more, and yeah.

oh, wait! i now accept writing and editing jobs! if you want me to write or edit your reaction papers and essays, just comment on this post. you can also leave your email addresses or any contact details so that i can contact you.

so yeah, that's about it for now i guess. may everyone have a great day! :)

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)
(until next time, avid reader)

haiku for today: Feb. 6, 2013

stretching my body

waiting for something to see

as my mind wanders.

haiku for the day.

typing and typing.
while listening to music,
it is getting numb.

don't leave things left unsaid.

i attended a wedding. well, i actually sang for the newly-weds. though, i was with a choir. this wedding was different. it was a Christian wedding. it was held in a wonderful place in Taguig. it was very intimate and very solemn. it was a beautiful wedding. what was also interesting, aside from the delicious food and nice giveaways, was the pastor's advice to the couple during homily.

"don't leave things left unsaid." a very short phrase. but, it was really meaningful. the pastor was actually friends with the couple, so he kind of knew the love story of the two. the groom actually had second thoughts of telling the girl that he loves her. he was afraid because he thought he will be rejected. but he thought that there is no harm in trying. at least he tried and told her about his feelings. the pastor said if the groom did not tell what he felt for the one he loves and just moved away, they would not be doing what they were doing at that very moment. they were already getting married.

as for me, i often, or maybe sometimes, say things that i should say. having said that, i had already left a lot of things left unsaid. i know, it hurts to not tell those things to people who should hear them. i guess, i am just afraid. i am afraid because people would not accept them. i am afraid that it might cost us our friendship. so, i just keep them to myself. sometimes, i think of those unsaid things and imagine what would actually happen if i actually said it to them.

there are just things that should be left unsaid and things left said. sometimes, even though you should not say it, you just say it, too. just to release the negativity. so, if you have something to say, say it. say it out loud. and do not regret that you said it.

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

it has been one heck of a year. many things happened, and they happened for a reason. met new friends along the way. had unforgettable moments, good and bad. traveled to places i never been to. done things i never tried. it has definitely been one heck of a year. it's time to move on! thanks for all those who were with me throughout the year! 2013 will be better, i am claiming it! start claiming yours! happy new year to all of us! :D

hanggang sa muli, masugid na mambabasa. :)