here we go again. i don’t know where to start. where to begin. where to find myself. where to… where to go. i don’t know. i always tell myself what i want to be. but it always turns out not working out. so i try again. then it won’t work.
i mean. i don’t know. i am always afraid to try. because i am always afraid to fail. because when i fail, i might not get up again. i mean, yeah, i want to learn. but i don’t want to fall straight to the bottom. i always blame myself when something goes wrong. i always see myself as a failure. but that shouldn’t be the case. but. i just can’t.
i need to do something. just anything. i need to feel better. just to make myself happy that i could do something good. even if it is not great, just good, i’d be happy. just.. if i could just. do something. really good.
i am sorry. i am. just. frustrated. :(
